6.28.2006

he-ar-ar-ar-ar-ar-art

I wish I could write about Summer.

Something rubs the wrong way, though. There are reasons why I cringe over the monumental task of writing about the Summer. There are obstacles--like my inherent proclivity toward sarcasm, for example. This season is chock full of the kind of earnestness that makes Joanna Newsom sound like a shrew, so it's hardly avoidable.

Writing about Regina Spektor poses a similar dilemma. On the one hand, Begin to Hope is good. It's really, really good.

Almost too good.

For one thing, there's the title--a cringe-worthy ode to the silver lining, at once maudlin and yet earnest. I mean, you can't criticize the woman for casting her glance to the ether and offering up a smile, right? Maybe I've been tainted by the deluge of Disney-purified brat-pop that crowds the airwaves today. Perhaps it's the way every marketing department from here to Timbuktu has chosen to seize what was once considered honest emotion and manipulate it into a putrid, festering turd of youth-oriented target marketing (Yes, I just typed the t-word. Moving on).

Whatever it is, I have the overwhelming sense that I can't trust the album, for all its merits. It occurred to me while I was on the freeway this morning, as I inhaled the rotten taint simmering off the asphalt and smiled. Smiled, people. Smiled at pollution over here. Grinned at global warming and Al Gore's heavy-lidded admonishments. Yes, it really is as serious as it sounds.

But that's the thing about Spektor's latest effort. The hyper, bouncing pop of the first track, "Fidelity," combined with the climbing mercury (and the fact that my friends have literally come out of hiding and desire to 'hang out' every single second of every single day), makes it nearly impossible not to love everything about life, including pollution. I mean, the stuff's likable. However, likable in a way that is far too immediate, far too much right away. It gives me a reason to want to find something wrong with it, and leaves me with considerable conviction that I will hate it in less than a month. It occurred to me this morning in my car, hurtling over the mess, that I need write about Regina Spektor right now.

Because next week I'll probably hate myself for loving her so much (one needs only to consult my gushing, blubbering, toe-tripping over the Cee-Lo/Danger Mouse oeuvre).

Nevertheless, the contents of the album seems to align with near pitch-perfect accuracy to every good thing about Summer that I can think of. Listening to Begin to Hope is like remembering summers gone by; the songs and the memories both are polished and refined, shaken free of any errant disparities that might separate them from The Ideal. I remember summer as the expansive green sky, a series of moments where the wind rushes over objects and temperature is neither hot nor cold, where the smell is sweet, hot, and heavy. I remember the feeling of lightness, and yes, of hope.

In the same way, Begin to Hope largely slinks by unnoticed as a sum of its parts. It is more of an aura, a shimmering humidity touching everything around it. But the minutiae do add up, and there are moments of brilliance--not unlike the epic night road trip, where stars and company and sights and sounds align. "Field Below" exhales with relaxed ease while the shivering piano breathes new energy into the sonic soundscape. "Fidelity" could very well trump all else in its path toward Summertime Anthemic Glory. There is a moment near the end of "Lady" that gave me thirty seconds of chills in the recollection of hot, sticky summer nights in New Orleans. The song slides so gracefully into "Summer in the City" that you'd think Spektor had unearthed some nostalgic artifacts hidden away and set it all to music.

But it's a fragile happiness. One that could too quickly become infected by its own simplicity, one that could implode on its self-conscious joyousness. And, much like Summer, it's over too quickly.

Best enjoy it while it lasts.

6.26.2006

before, after

the humble abode before the invasion of my creatively-minded, interior decorator-genius, chef of a roommate:



and the most recent permutation on an endless string of re-arrangements:



I love my roommate.

6.11.2006

get back, loretta

I've found myself cowering in the corner with a free (or stolen) second, and thought it might be appropriate to update this little corner of Cyberspace I like to call home. I say cowering because it is now t-minus two hours before we leave for the airport, which will (hopefully) whisk us away to the Aloha State and my dad has gone into full-on military sergeant mode: "I want your bags PACKED by six o'clock. SIX O'CLOCK!" (And so on).

Right now I'm sitting at my family's archaic iMac (remember the ones with all the rounded edges, fully encased in a peppy box of COLOR? Yeah, we have the gray one) in Oregon. I arrived thursday night, surrounded on all sides on the airplane by Blazer fans (who knew?), and I've been up to the usual antics since:

-Breakfast with the grandparents at the food-has-been-fantastic-for-fifty-years breakfast joint, listening to them mostly talk about sprinkler systems and fencing, wherein I punctuated the conversation with my input: BARBED! WIRE!

-I managed to make it to DownTown (two caps there) Salem. Toodling around the mall with my Dad, I singlehandedly convinced him to buy hip Adidas shoes AND slim cut, dark wash jeans. Too hip, too hip.

-Quickly following the shopping trip was the Wee One's high school graduation. It was an endless blue (Blue! White! Fight, fight, fight!) sea of 5'5" identically groomed girls, their long hair fluttering in the non-existent breeze. In matching flip flops, holding hands four-abreast, they marched fearlessly down the aisle. It was as if they were challenging the future that would separate them all to a gamely match of Red Rover, Red Rover (I'll give you one guess as to who will win that match). The guys were no different; heads cocked back with the toes-forward gait of someone who spends more time on a skateboard than a sidewalk.

-Saturday was spent driving up to Seattle (three states! two weeks! Where in the world is Carmen San Diego!) with Wee One to shoot a wedding. The drive consisted mainly of scanning the radio stations in hopes of finding something decent to listen to, and squawking angrily if my sister paused too long on a country station. We bummed around Seattle (University District) for a bit, shot the wedding, drove home, and on the way, discovered that the State of Washington collectively decided to repave the freeway that night.

Much delay ensued.

I've come to two conclusions regarding 'the day':

A) There are no good radio stations in the state of Washington. We drove an hour and a half before we heard a single song written after 1995. I'm not joking about this.

B) There are more exits--and well marked ones, at that--in church buildings than exist in any building, anywhere in the United States. Should you choose to wed in a church, there's a 90% chance (95% if the church happens to have been renovated after 1976) that there WILL be a glowing green exit sign in nearly all of your wedding pictures. People are afraid of church. There are a million exits. That's just the way it is.

C) Washington drivers, and Oregon drivers driving in Washington. I'm simply stating this as a fact, a title, if you will. Washington drivers. Oregon drivers in Washington. I will say this: I live in LA. I drive in LA. I am surrounded by LA traffic and LA drivers every single day of my existence.

Washington Drivers and Oregon Drivers Driving in Washington would scare the hail mary's out of LA drivers.

This world.

I tell you.

6.07.2006

Pomp

One year ago (give or take a couple of weeks), I squirmed, sweating under the weight of adulthood, mortarboard, and a (cruelly) black robe. I was floating in a sea of about 500 other similarly (or exactly) dressed 'adults' (I use the term loosely, even still). Sitting in the front row within careful eyeshot of the dean of students, as well as the El Presidente and the entire faculty of my great institution, I was stubbornly listening to "Hey Jude" on my iPod. On repeat. For the duration of the 2.5 hour ceremony.

It felt like a funeral. When those blithering, triumphant "Na na-na nanana Naaaaah's" hit my ears I wanted to shed this awkward skin and run screaming for the hills. Nobody, not 500 people, not 500 beers, not 500 'congratulations' could have made me feel less alone. We were the class of 2005.

But one year out and we had survived the amusingly anti-climactic slide into adulthood. We were pushed from the chute, suckling infants mawing for attention; attention we have yet to--and I secretly suspect we never will--receive.

Most of my friends have dealt with their abandonment issues ostensibly by foo-fooing the tawdry, living breathing facade of this wild, wild, West as simply being a springboard for their journey to the next best thing. That being, other countries that will undoubtedly ignore them much like this one has.

But don't tell them that.

These winds of On the Road, Baudrillard-esque mild hysteria tend to eddy in my little corner of paradise, much in the same way that the 210 is forever wheezing in asthmatic convulsions under the shadow of those smog-hoarding foothills. I suspect there's a Dean Moriarty in us all, but I also suspect our youthful wanderlust is merely the glittering Mardi Gras mask that conceals what we are bereft to recognize:

That we are devastatingly less fascinating and complex than we appear.

If what I deftly pass myself off as resembles interesting (even if only mildly), then what actually exists there is more akin to a banal averageness. But I'm okay with this. A year ago, perhaps, facing the crushing blow of admitting that I and my youthful proclivities were nothing to laud didn't settle well. Now, though, now I'm okay with this.

And here I am, stupidly residing over the very gaping jaws of the San Andreas Fault, every day mimicking its crooked path over the cracked, hot skin of the Conquered Desert by way of the (insert numerical identity here) Freeway. I've made a little niche for myself and I like it just fine out here poised recklessly at the edge of America, waiting for the shakedown. This craggy spine of a state could care less, and in fact, most ignores my comings and goings (which suits me just fine). I think I might like to call this place 'home,' if it would let me. But then again, there's that leering monster in the corner, the one that pushes wanderers to forever wander; that causes the restless to be proverbially insomniac.

I blame my friends.

You don't get to choose them, or maybe you do, but mine are no exception: Each and every one equally idealistic, equally quasi-ironic (a particular brand of humor which suits me just fine), and equally disgusted with the thought of 'putting down roots.'

I can just hear them.

Roots.

How prosaic.

Or, more appropriately, "We all just came from the candy-colored la-la land that promised us Marriage (capital M) and an SUV by the age of 22, yet here we are, scorned lovers of 'The System,' (and unwitting believers in the siren call of life as a pastor's spouse). What did you expect us to do?"

(Okay, so they probably wouldn't say that either. More likely, "I started to read your blog but it was too long, so I stopped." Well if you've made it this far, you're steps ahead of the crowd, you little trooper, you.)

Nonetheless, this month marks the one year anniversary when, for the first time in my tender, young life, I scowled into the canopy of ozone and helicopters and shouted, "Gah! Does it even really matter?"

(To which the sky had no response, and I must admit I'm still a little bitter about this)

But when I'm adding up the checks and balances of this adult life (dreams? Check. Post-collegiate idealism? Check. Money? Oh...), I can tentatively form an answer I found to be disconcerting a year ago, but now has taken on a plaintive and contented shrug-of-the-shoulders:

You never know. You just never know.

6.01.2006

April 18, 1983

June 1.

Once upon a time, I was gnarly little thing of about five or six. I existed under a tangled mess of dirty blonde hair (dirty in both senses of the word; 'dirty blonde' the color, and dirty because I hated being clean) and a smattering of freckles. I also existed in a world which can only be called La-La Land where I and my opinions of every-little-thing reigned supreme. In this world, I was the sovereign and sole ruler of what We did with Our time (I say this as the Royal 'We', of course), and therefore, We spent most of our time outside. We only wore skirts (yes, even in the snow). We NEVER brushed our hair. And we won each and every argument, 100% of the time.

I grew up in a great house. The backyard was a vast and impeccable network of flowers, grass, and vegetables. The front yard contained more, well, yard (and nestled inside that grass the insidious and wholly evil landmines--prickly droppings of the trees which crouched, waiting to bomb our little corner of suburbia). The sidewalks had long since groaned and shifted over the shape of roots beneath it, creating fantastic dips and divots which my sister and I lambasted with hose water every-single-summer-day, creating miniature swimming pools.

When I say miniature, I mean a grand sweeping total of about three inches in depth on the 'deep end' of the 'pool' (I use those terms loosely). Nevertheless, my sister and I would roll around in the murky depths with the delighted caw-caws of an entire herd of elephants in a bathing pool. It was a simpler time.

Fast forward to 1995. I was eleven or twelve, depending on which side of April you were on. Adolescence was lurking just around the corner, and I could feel my body beginning to betray me, little by little. Grunge was in full effect three hours north in Seattle, and while I wasn't too certain who Pearl Jam was, I was pretty darn certain that extra-large flannel was God's gift to mankind. The childhood defiance that manifested itself in a refusal to wear pants or learn to read when I was five had now blossomed into a carefully calculated, fully realized pre-teenage rebellion. Could a person actually be right about not just everything, but everything-everything-infinity-amen? The answer, of course, is, yes. Duh.

Maybe I'm feeling nostalgic because yet another summer is beginning, and I don't know about you, but I tend to take stock at the beginning of June. This year, my mid-year collection of Facts, Memories, and Are-We-Okay-With-Life-Right-Now? Yes-We-Are's have taken the form of the gloriously longwinded, mildly narcissistic, semi-autobiographical Mix to End All Mixes.

So without further explanation (or weepy nostalgia), The Mix To End All Mixes: Longer Than the American Idol Finale and More Dramatic Than a Meatloaf Music Video--FROM BIRTH! TO DEATH! AND EVERYTHING IN BETWEEN!

(whoo...had to exhale for a second there)



1. I Was Born - Billy Bragg & Wilco
2. First Day of My Life - Bright Eyes
3. Green Eyes - Coldplay
4. All My Little Words - The Magnetic Fields
5. Five - Breathe Owl Breathe
6. Long Haired Child - Devendra Banhart
7. You Yourself Are Too Serious - Mercury Program
8. Come and Play in the Milky Night - Stereolab
9. I'm 9 Today - Mum
10. Capture the Flag - Broken Social Scene
11. Draw a Dinosaur for Me - Jens Lekman
12. Little Boys - Devendra Banhart
13. Bigger Stronger - Coldplay
14. Changes are no Good - The Stills
15. That Teenage Feeling - Neko Case
16. Drive My Car - The Beatles (And what a car, at that: a 1996 white Chevy S10 extended cab with three 70-lb sand bags weighing down the bed, which I promptly, upon receiving my license, flipped on their sides by taking corners too fast)
17. Anthems for a Seventeen-Year-Old Girl - Broken Social Scene
18. Just Like a Woman - Bob Dylan
19. Chasing Dreams - Magnet
20. She's Leaving Home - The Beatles
21. Los Angeles, I'm Yours - Decemberists
22. Fell in Love at 22 - Starflyer 59 (This is not true. Unless you count cacti as something you could love. Then yes. Most completely.)
23. Doors Lead to Questions - The Appleseed Cast
24. To Be Young (Is to Be Sad, Is to Be High) - Ryan Adams
25. Pancakes for One - Of Montreal (I would like to point out that this song signifies the dark blemish in time--say, about five months ago--when I lived. Alone. Ah-lone. See above comment about loving cacti.)
26. My Little Corner of the World - Yo La Tengo (Speaking of alone, this song--appropriately, thanks to Jen--refers to the time when we had our inter-office shuffle at the Pink Wonderland and I, along with the coffee maker and printer, comprised a desk-island all to ourselves. Sad days, those were.)
27. Should've Been in Love - Wilco
28. I Like Your Photographs - Starflyer 59 (shameless plug: www.laureldailey.com. Yeah, I went there)
29. It's Our Job - Sondre Lerche
30. Dinner at Eight in the Suburbs - All-Time Quarterback
31. Rockin' the Suburbs - Ben Folds (I should note that I blasted this song every single day for an entire summer when I was chirping my hello's at the reception desk of a beloved Salem accounting firm)
32. Reunion - Stars
33. Pictures of Success - Rilo Kiley
34. But the Regrets Are Killing Me - American Football
35. Blue Turning Gray - Clap Your Hands Say Yeah!
36. First Heart Attack - Starflyer 59
37. Don't Die on Me - Mirah
38. When I'm Sixty-Four - The Beatles
39. Old - Starflyer 59
40. Remember Me As a Time of Day - Explosions in the Sky
41. I Die - The Magnetic Fields
42. Road to Joy - Bright Eyes
43. Do You Remember the Riots (orchestral version) - Jens Lekman

And there you have it. Call it the ultimate soundtrack to my life.

Happy June, everyone.

We Go Together Like...

And! And!

Another Mix.


Zak and Sara - Ben Folds
Love and Death - The Stills
Young and Insane - The Magnetic Fields
Wasted and Ready - Ben Kweller
Crimson and Clover - Joan Jett
Police and Thieves - The Clash
Smoke and Mirrors - The Magnetic Fields
Card Games and Old Friends - Starflyer 59
Lily and Parrots - Sun Kil Moon
Butterflies and Hurricanes - Muse
Steps and Numbers - The Appleseed Cast
Space and Time - The Verve
Title and Registration - Death Cab for Cutie
Virtue and Wine - Sondre Lerche
Inside and Out - Feist
Bye and Bye - Bob Dylan
Bridges and Balloons - Joanna Newsom
Cinder and Smoke - Iron & Wine
Marigold & Patchwork - The Appleseed Cast
Stars and Sons - Broken Social Scene
The Clock and the Storm - The Appleseed Cast
The Sea and the Rhythm - Iron & Wine
Animals and Insects - The Stills
Tweedle Dee and Tweedle Dum - Bob Dylan
Wires and Waves - Rilo Kiley
The Bachelor and the Bride - Decemberists
Rooms and Gardens - The Appleseed Cast
Birds and Ships - Billy Bragg & Wilco
Bought and Sold - Neko Case
High and Dry - Radiohead
Tables and Chairs - Andrew Bird
The Want and the Waiting - The Six Parts Seven
Yours and Mine - Calexico
Snow and Lights - Explosions in the Sky

Brilliant!

"The Title is a Poem, See?"

I - Andrew Bird
Fell in Love at 22 - Starflyer 59
It's All Over Now, Baby Blue - Bob Dylan
Another Day - The Album Leaf
Another Man's Done Gone - Billy Bragg & Wilco
Another Travelin' Song - Bright Eyes
A Good Man Is Hard to Find - Sufjan Stevens
At Least That's What You Said - Wilco
Any Major Dude Will Tell You - Wilco
We're Going to be Friends - The White Stripes
It Doesn't Really Matter - ForStars
Because - The Beatles
Los Angeles, I'm Yours - Decemberists
In the End - Luke Temple



(( 14 Tales of Love Labour's Lost, by Laurel Dailey ))

I fell in love at 22
It's all over now, baby blue

another day, another man's done gone
another travelin' song

"a good man is hard to find,"
at least that's what you said

any major dude will tell you
"We're going to be friends."

It doesn't really matter because
Los Angeles, I'm yours, in the end.

Oh! And!

...and since we're on the subject of concept-mixes, and since my mind's been experiencing veritable breech in the Hoover dam of ideas lately, here's another!

Twelve Months of Rent Equals $12,000 I'll Never See Again

1/06 - January Thaw - Seth Bernard and Daisy May
2/06 - February - The Appleseed Cast
3/06 - The Upwards March - Bell Orchestre
4/06 - April 8th - Neutral Milk Hotel
5/06 - May's Waltz - Seth Bernard
6/06 - Stop Me June (Little Ego) - Kent
7/06 - July, July! - Decemberists
8/06 - August - Rilo Kiley
9/06 - September Baby - Joseph Arthur
10/06 - October Road - James Taylor
11/06 - November Spawned a Monster - Morrissey
12/06 - December 27, 1990 - The Appleseed Cast

 
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